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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Last Updated: 21.06.2025 06:47

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

So whats the point in blame.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

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My mum and dad in the seventies!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I could never make a relationship work though!

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My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I was seconnd youngest,

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I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Who then, do I blame.?

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Why do men like women gold diggers?

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

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Where the ultimate outsiders.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

My life is so biszare .

I have been married for 34 years, and I found out my wife lied, and cheated a lot back before we got married. Does she not change, or is it possible she is still a cheater?

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

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He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Especially a lifetime of it.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

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One cannot live in the past .

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

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One cannot hold on to bitterness.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

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Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

He knew the spot.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

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On the 31st of Jan this month .

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Put me off passion for life!!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

When she asked me how she looked .

I did it because my mum asked me too!

What did i know ?

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

But it wasn’t much.

I don,t even have a pension.

She loved him until the end.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

This is soul school!.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

She married twice! .

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I waited trembling.

(And it was in our own minds.)

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I write beautiful poetry .

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

He resisted the act ,that day.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I never cut or harmed myself..

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I was very sick at this time too.

So, i spoilt her more .

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I think the readers, may guess!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I have no regrets .

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

And i lived it daily.

We were not on the streets..

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I will be 64.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Comes on , in middle age.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

But, we were locked up after school.

My family never makes their pension either.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I couldn’t, believe it.

She was in good health!

But ive been too sick for many years..

I said to her

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

She found it foreign!.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

We all went to grammer schools

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I was 9 years of age.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Was to survive, this bastard.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

She wouldn,t have been !

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Why did i forgive my father ?

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Im still living with it.

Would this be the day?

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

All the time i was locked up.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I was scared of men, in general

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

It was going to be , some day.

Ive learnt so much.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.